Positive thinking still powerful

Dear diary, I am feeling energized and powerful right now, like I can I do anything. Maybe I am bi polar. I don’t think so, but I do know that by comparison to how I was feeling yesterday it’s incredible how different I feel today. And what’s interesting is that this happens to me every month and has been happening to me every month for years. People can dismiss it all they want but there’s a definite connection between my menstrual cycle and my state of mind; and I’m not talking PMS either. PMS trivializes the whole issue. I’m not talking about bad moods vs good moods. I’m talking about something far more profound. But I won’t get into it right now. Maybe another time. Right now I’m mock trading forex using the etoro platform. I’ve issued an order to buy the Canadian dollar against the US dollar. I’ve put up $1000 mock dollars. Of course I don’t really know what I’m doing but hopefully I’ll grasp this stuff soon enough and maybe try my hand at trading for real. Who knows? I wouldn’t be doing it to try to get rich and it seems so far like it’s possible to make small profits throughout the day. Small profits add up. I certainly wouldn’t consider an extra $100 per day to be anything to snicker at. If I could make that trading forex why not?

I did a little house-cleaning today. Nothing major. I also watched some tennis. Marat Safin defeated Novak Jokovic on the men’s side. I’m glad about that. I like Safin. Ana Ivanovic advanced on the women’s side. That didn’t make me too happy. I’m not a big fan. She seems a little bit arrogant, like she’s developed Hingisitis. I’m rooting for Nadal to win on the men’s side. I’d definitely put a poster of him naked on my wall and I wouldn’t apologize for the fact that I’m old enough to be his mother sort of. I’d have had him when I was 15 but it happens. I was 18 when I had my own child.

Hey, a 16 year age difference didn’t stop Demi Moore so why should I be embarrassed to be attracted to a young man who is 15 years younger than I am? My husband is 14 years older than I am and that’s not a big deal to anybody. But I do think older women should think twice before they hook-up with younger men though. Certainly if I were to hook up with Nadal (yeah, I know–not even in my wildest dreams), I wouldn’t get involved for other than the physical. The idea of a woman my age trying to relate on par with a 22-year old boy is ridiculous. But that’s entirely enough of that.

Did I happen to mention that I was able to pay my server bill? I was all concerned last week, not knowing where the money was going to come from but I refused to panic. It came down to the last minute, but I was fortunate to land a couple of new clients; and not only did I manage to pay my server bill, I will be able to pay the freelance writers I am working with. Everything should be okay for July; and if all goes well, August and September should be less of a financial strain. I say this while having only $400 in my account right now. I expect to be doing some work for one of the new clients into the next couple of months; but even if that doesn’t go as expected I will continue to do what I have always done which is keep looking. Something always comes up. Opportunities are always out there. You just have to turn over the right stone.