Money worries still a problem

Dear Diary, I still haven’t managed to come up with any money; but I’m not going to worry about it. Why worry? I’m tempted to panic but why panic? I’m tempted to curse God but why? Whose fault is it other than my own that I am not making money? Yes I work. I work very hard for long hours. I’m always actively working. I never take a break. Just ask my son and my husband; but what difference does it make? I’m not making any money except for the occasional website sale or the occasional ad sale. It’s really depressing but I refuse to be depressed because when you’re depressed you do stupid things like overeat; and I’ve already had more than half of the 500 calories I’m allowed to eat today. I’m tempted to be negative but what will it help me to start complaining? It’s father’s day today and my son is paying for us to take the hubby to the movies. I’m not really looking forward to it. I’m just not in a great mood. But I’ll try my best not to ruin the day for everybody.

30 minutes later….

The movies are off. Hubby doesn’t think it’s a good idea given the current state of finances despite the fact that my son was going to pay. I’m tempted to think he just doesn’t want to go out with us. Whatever. I just finished doing some dance aerobics so the endogenous opioid polypeptide compounds otherwise known as endorphins are preventing me from reacting badly. I didn’t really want to go anywhere with him anyway. Those trips are usually disastrous.